heartbreak..

i feel useless.. i feel like a failure. God help me. Lead me in what i do. every single decision i make doesn't bear fruit. i thought i was doing right but i was not. i thought i'm good but i am not. i am crushed. i don't know. i don't like this. what is happening to me? help. its painful. i thought i was generous. but i realized today that i am selfish. i am soo selfish. serve me right. what was i thinking? deliver me o God. i had negative thoughts in me.. i know its wrong.